Wednesday, 31 October 2007

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! So usually I write about what I've done...boring, boring - but never about what I'm thinking about, what inspires me or how I'm really feeling. So I think it's time for change and start writing about something less trivial. I read a quote from someone's blog and I thought it was great "I used to want to change the world. Now I just want to leave the room with a little dignity". I rememember having such grand ideas of what I wanted to accomplish in life, now it seems just getting through the day to day stuff is challenging enough. When I was 16, I wrote out a list of things I wanted to accomplish by the time I hit 30.. It had stuff on it like, being married, having 2 kids, owning a Mercedes, to have a big beautiful home, and to have a great job that I make lots of money at. When I turned 30, my mom found this list and gave it to me.... What a shock, at the time I had so many expectations as to what my life would be like and at that point really none of them had come true. I'm now 37 and it seems that many of my goals have changed. Yeah, it would be great to have the perfect career that I never had to worry about money again, having a huge home and fancy sports car - but honestly, I've learn to become very content at what I have. When I was younger, I didn't have many friends - really none, I was a bit of an outcast, I knew a lot of people but really not anyone that I could call up and confess my deepest darkest secrets. A lot has changed since then, I think I really value the friendships that I have now. Years ago, I guess I believed that the more I had would show people my importance now I think having good friends and family really shows the type of character someone has which really is more important. So I may not change the world but hopefully I can leave it with some dignity.